ok ok....my first ever attempt to blog! My name is Daniel Maddox and im 25 years old. im married to my loving wife, Jamie. She has a blog called: jamie-perfectlyimperfect.blogspot.com
November 30, 2010, my heart was crushed. Jamie and i were expecting twins when the unthinkable happened. she started to have complications and was put on bed rest. One night after we woke from a nap, we had to rush to the hospital due to bleeding. we spent two weeks in the hospital. we lost our twin girls, Ava and Mackenzie, that night. the only thing that could go through my mind was, "Why US????" what did i do to deserve this? i dont think i can get into too much details because i dont think i can express myself correctly at this point in my life. if you want the whole situation in depth, you can go to her blog noted above. if it doesnt kill me, it can only make me stronger, right???
With the loss of our children, how could i be so strong??? Ive held back tears over and over. I think of them constantly. They have made me the man i am today. Family is now closer. i literally sit back and just breathe. Just taking in the breath i wish my girls could take. These two girls were not here long, but what an impact they have made. Man, i remember holding them and feeling the bond only a father and daughter can have. its only by the grace of God that this happen. There has to be a good reason for this. And i think i found a reason.
My walk with God has been a bumpy road. Ive been going to church my whole life. but, i feel like i was always just going through the motions. dont get me wrong, i BELIEVE. Just not acting on it nor showing it. Jamie started going to Journey Community Church in August. I can say i havent gone to church for months. After the passing of our precious girls, i took a shot and went. In only ONE hour, i felt the spirit running through me like crazy. i cried and boo-hooed all service. ive never been so spiritually fed in my life. since that day, i havent missed a service and i wont. when Sunday service comes and goes, all i want for next Sunday to get here. Without my girls i would still be a lost soul. There is one blessing in disguise.
I could sit here and type all night, but ill give you guys a rest and ill get back to ya soon.
THANKS AND GOD BLESS!!!!
