Confused

o.k. i need to get this off my chest. i have some unchurched friends who i have tried telling them about Christ. some people grow up not ever knowing who Jesus is. some deny Him. i just dont get it. sometimes i feel like just shaking them and screaming, "Dont you understand what you are doing" Jesus DIED for YOU. he wants you to have a never-ending joy. some say its too hard or there isnt enough hard proof showing He is real. like i heard before... you see a leaf blowing. you know the wind is doing it. but you cant see wind. but you know its there. Its the same concept with God. you might not see Him or audibly hear Him, but He is everywhere. I was radically changed. 180 degree turnaround. The undying love i have for Christ will never change. i cant wait to hear, "Well done good and faithful servant" i get the Holy Ghost goosebumps thinking about it. Man........oh that day will come. i just hope that i can get some close friends to catch on sooner rather than later. i dont want to push them away or bog them down with listening to me talk about my awesome  FATHER. all i ask whoever reads this. pray for them
thanks so much
God Bless

Time Flies

I cant believe its been six months since i wrote something. so im going to try make this a regular thing. My life has been flipped all around since last time i wrote. ive been going to the most amazing church, Journey Community Church. i serve there as a host/offering. it's so weird how that happened. while im working, i listen to podcasts from Bobby Smith, Francis Chan, Rick Coram, and T.D. Jakes. I was listening to a sermon about how much Jesus served and did it front of very few. i was moved by it so much i called the church. i talked to Jennifer and David about needing to do something at the church, i needed to serve and as quick as possible. they set me up that weekend. man, if feels good to help others. softball started at the church and i joined. we played in the "beer league" it felt great to reach out to the other teams and had a prayer after every game. a few weeks ago, i was baptized. what an amazing day!!!! my wife dunked me under. it was such an awesome time to have the love of my life help with my baptism. this past weekend, i gave my testimony at church. i thought i would be so nervous and that i would probably stutter the whole time. God gave me the ability to be calm and speak perfectly. i prayed for him to give me the words to reach out to someone who might by struggling. im dont want people to pity me because the hurts in my past. i want to help His kingdom grow. thats all!!!