The ups and downs of life!

another few days have passed and can i say, "What just happened?" it seemed like if something happened, it went bad. i know in my last blog post that i was showing praise of my new ministry opportunities. not even the next night, satan was coming for me. he was trying all his tricks he has to tear me apart. i can honestly say, i was getting a little frustrated. i know i had all my faith in Christ, but man i was starting to buckle. ive been through plenty of heartache in my past and i know without a doubt there is more in the future. i know that my struggles these last few days arent the worst. well, my car broke down after work one night. i stalled out in the drive-thru at arby's. tons of fun that was. the night before that, i saw a message on facebook that a family member posted. it didnt name any names but it was meant for me. it hurts to know that family was disappointed in me. i know that i havent been a great son to my parents. not a great sibling for that matter. ive been working two jobs, newborn to take care of, church, ministry start-ups, supporting my family. i cant say that im not trying to be around. i havent had time. but its time to make some more changes. i love my family so much. i wish they could see all the "good" changes and moves i have made to become a better christian. and to top those two things, Working through augusta during the masters. haha. what a joke. i sat in stopped traffic for nearly an hour just to try to go two miles. turning my route into an all day mess. trying to play catch-up isnt fun.
   but throughout all this craziness, i gave all my struggles to God. i really didnt know how to deal with all of them, but i know who does. He gives me all the power in the world to get through anything.

O taste and see that the Lord is good! Blessed is the man who trusts and takes refuge in Him. Psalm 34:8

     i can put it to you this way, as i put ALL my faith in Christ and do exactly as He tells us, im will win this game called life. but its not about the win, its about the after-party. i cant wait to see streets of gold. let me take that back. i really dont care about all the gold. i cant wait to see my God and worship Him for eternity. 
   so it turns out like always, God takes my struggles into blessings. my car in fact was really broken. i ran out of gas. the gauge was saying i had a full tank. its under warranty so its gonna get fixed for FREE. Thank you God. he is putting people in my past to witness to and im not gonna back down from doing it. 

    i wanted to share Luke 9: 57-62 with you guys. There is definitely a cost for being a follower of Christ. The world is a rough place. you need to fix your gaze upon Christ and follow him. nothing should get in your way of God. He is everything you need to get through absolutely anything. i thank Him daily for giving me the strength to endure this corrupt world. 
off to bed now....night!

comment or message me what thoughts you have on this! thanks